My pregnancy was short lived. On Wednesday I started miscarrying my 4th baby. I knew it was coming because my betas weren't doubling but I was still trying to be hopeful. I just don't understand why my body kills babies. WHY does this have to happen to me (or to anyone). I just dont understand why this has to happen. I wish I had answers. On 11/16 I am going to the doctor for my miscarriage follow up and I am going to ask for every test under the sun. I just need to know why I am killing babies. I thought that having the 2 surgeries to reconstruct my uterus was supposed to make me be able to have a successful pregnancy but I have had 2 miscarriages since then. I am just so lost.
To make matters worse tuesday is the day my first 2 babies were due. I was really hoping to be pregnant and stay pregnant by the time the babies were born. I am just so upset and wish i could just magically have a baby of my own.
Even though this whole thing has sucked I have to say I have amazing friends. I cant believe the support I have had from everyone. I am so thankful to have so many wonderful people in my life
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