My pregnancy was short lived. On Wednesday I started miscarrying my 4th baby. I knew it was coming because my betas weren't doubling but I was still trying to be hopeful. I just don't understand why my body kills babies. WHY does this have to happen to me (or to anyone). I just dont understand why this has to happen. I wish I had answers. On 11/16 I am going to the doctor for my miscarriage follow up and I am going to ask for every test under the sun. I just need to know why I am killing babies. I thought that having the 2 surgeries to reconstruct my uterus was supposed to make me be able to have a successful pregnancy but I have had 2 miscarriages since then. I am just so lost.
To make matters worse tuesday is the day my first 2 babies were due. I was really hoping to be pregnant and stay pregnant by the time the babies were born. I am just so upset and wish i could just magically have a baby of my own.
Even though this whole thing has sucked I have to say I have amazing friends. I cant believe the support I have had from everyone. I am so thankful to have so many wonderful people in my life
Homemaker?!?
Embracing all things domestic
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
Homemade hummus
This baby really likes hummus. Who would have thought. I have NEVER liked hummus before but here I am craving it at 4 am, 6, am 12 noon. So this morning I got up early to go get my pregnancy blood work and on my way home I stopped at the grocery store and bought some chick peas. So here is what I did:
1 can chick peas
3-4 tbsp roasted garlic
1 tbsp olive oil
1/2 tbsp lemon juice
dash of italian seasoning (just because the thought of more makes me feel nauseated)
So what I did is take my massive jar of minced garlic and took 2 HEAPING spoonfuls (the the big spoon) and put it in a frying pan with 1/2 of the olive oil. I fried it up to make it "roasted". Then i just everything in the ninja and mixed it up. so good!!
1 can chick peas
3-4 tbsp roasted garlic
1 tbsp olive oil
1/2 tbsp lemon juice
dash of italian seasoning (just because the thought of more makes me feel nauseated)
So what I did is take my massive jar of minced garlic and took 2 HEAPING spoonfuls (the the big spoon) and put it in a frying pan with 1/2 of the olive oil. I fried it up to make it "roasted". Then i just everything in the ninja and mixed it up. so good!!
making a baby blanket
I may be crazy. I am crocheting a baby blanket. The only things I have successfully crocheted to date are a couple of head bands (the scarf was a big fail). But I decided to take on the baby blanket. Unfortunately I like instant gratification and this baby blanket is going to take forever but I cant wait to see the finished product. I told myself I need to crochet 2-4 lines a day (which takes about 30-40 minutes). If I do this it MAY be done by the time the baby arrives lol. I hope it turns out ok. it may be an unidentifiable shape but it will keep my baby warm :)
I'm pregnant!
So for the last 2 weeks I have been in Florida visiting my family and going to my friend's wedding. Well for a couple of days I wasnt able to sleep and last wednesday woke up at 3:30 am and felt the need to take a pregnancy test. Well it was POSITIVE!! I am pregnant. Thursday I came home back to CT and got blood work and my HCG was 65, Saturday I got a repeat and it was 98 which really isnt great. It is supposed to double every 48-72 hours with a minimum of 66% by 48 hours. Well it wasnt quite 66%. I went back for repeat blood work today and hoping it doubled. I really hope this baby lasts. I have had 3 miscarriages, first one was when I was pregnant with 2 babies and i lost one before the other, second time was the second baby in the first pregnancy that I lost at 10 weeks, the third one was in August. I am just praying constantly that this baby survives. I dont know if I can go through another miscarriage.
Last night I asked my husband if there is ever a point where we should stop trying. Like if I have 7 miscarriages or something. He said no. Honestly I think if I hit 5 in a row I might be done. I don't think I am go through much more than that. There are so many babies out there that need love. I guess we will just see what happens with this baby. I really want it to survive but I am going to plan for the worst. That sounds so morbid but I think it will be easier to accept it if it happens. I am obviously hoping for the best though. Please pray that this baby survives
Last night I asked my husband if there is ever a point where we should stop trying. Like if I have 7 miscarriages or something. He said no. Honestly I think if I hit 5 in a row I might be done. I don't think I am go through much more than that. There are so many babies out there that need love. I guess we will just see what happens with this baby. I really want it to survive but I am going to plan for the worst. That sounds so morbid but I think it will be easier to accept it if it happens. I am obviously hoping for the best though. Please pray that this baby survives
Friday, September 30, 2011
Money Saved today
So I am trying to start keeping track of the money I am saving. I have been doing coupons and looking for deals for a long time but have never actually looked at what it saves me.
Here are just a couple today (I forgot to keep track of everything this week but next week is a new week)
CVS- spent $00.51 saved $6.20
Walgreens- spent $6.08 saved $12.37
Weight Watchers- spent $11.37 saved $11.37
Subway- spent $7.35 saved $5.27
Here are just a couple today (I forgot to keep track of everything this week but next week is a new week)
CVS- spent $00.51 saved $6.20
Walgreens- spent $6.08 saved $12.37
Weight Watchers- spent $11.37 saved $11.37
Subway- spent $7.35 saved $5.27
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Productive Day
Today was super productive. I went to AC Moore and got craft supplies, made a Gator wreath, learned how to crochet, started on making a neck warmer/scarf, practiced tap dancing for an hour and a half and now I am snuggling with my hubby watching Charlies Angels.
Tomorrow I hope to accomplish:
- finish my scarf
- give the puppies a bath
- organize all of the new coupons
- vaccum
- practice tap for an hour
- go to the base thrift shop and try to find my husband a new uniform top
Tomorrow I hope to accomplish:
- finish my scarf
- give the puppies a bath
- organize all of the new coupons
- vaccum
- practice tap for an hour
- go to the base thrift shop and try to find my husband a new uniform top
Rag/Fabric Gator Wreath
My first attempt at being crafty didn't go nearly as well as planned but it was fun to work on it. I made a Gator colored wreath from a bunch of blue fabric I had and a big orange bow (note to self work on your bow making skills because they are not very good). My wonderful husband said it looked really good but I think he is blinded by love :)
So this was super easy. My hubby molded an old wire hanger into a circle and secured it with military duct tape ( it is a little small because I discovered we only owned 1 wire hanger and it wasn't a complete hanger). Then I cut my material into 1"x 8-10" strips and tied them around the hanger. Super easy. The part that took the longest was cutting the strips.
Things I will do next time: Use a fabric that is the same color on both sides, cut all the fabric at once, not try to cut the fabric with Alli laying on half of it, use a complete hanger
So this was super easy. My hubby molded an old wire hanger into a circle and secured it with military duct tape ( it is a little small because I discovered we only owned 1 wire hanger and it wasn't a complete hanger). Then I cut my material into 1"x 8-10" strips and tied them around the hanger. Super easy. The part that took the longest was cutting the strips.
Things I will do next time: Use a fabric that is the same color on both sides, cut all the fabric at once, not try to cut the fabric with Alli laying on half of it, use a complete hanger
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