Sunday, October 30, 2011

miscarriage number 4

My pregnancy was short lived. On Wednesday I started miscarrying my 4th baby. I knew it was coming because my betas weren't doubling but I was still trying to be hopeful. I just don't understand why my body kills babies. WHY does this have to happen to me (or to anyone). I just dont understand why this has to happen. I wish I had answers. On 11/16 I am going to the doctor for my miscarriage follow up and I am going to ask for every test under the sun. I just need to know why I am killing babies. I thought that having the 2 surgeries to reconstruct my uterus was supposed to make me be able to have a successful pregnancy but I have had 2 miscarriages since then. I am just so lost.

To make matters worse tuesday is the day my first 2 babies were due. I was really hoping to be pregnant and stay pregnant by the time the babies were born. I am just so upset and wish i could just magically have a baby of my own.

Even though this whole thing has sucked I have to say I have amazing friends. I cant believe the support I have had from everyone. I am so thankful to have so many wonderful people in my life

Monday, October 17, 2011

Homemade hummus

This baby really likes hummus. Who would have thought. I have NEVER liked hummus before but here I am craving it at 4 am, 6, am 12 noon. So this morning I got up early to go get my pregnancy blood work and on my way home I stopped at the grocery store and bought some chick peas. So here is what I did:

1 can chick peas
3-4 tbsp roasted garlic
1 tbsp olive oil
1/2 tbsp lemon juice
dash of italian seasoning (just because the thought of more makes me feel nauseated)


So what I did is take my massive jar of minced garlic and took 2 HEAPING spoonfuls (the the big spoon) and put it in a frying pan with 1/2 of the olive oil. I fried it up to make it "roasted". Then i just everything in the ninja and mixed it up. so good!!

making a baby blanket

I may be crazy. I am crocheting a baby blanket. The only things I have successfully crocheted to date are a couple of head bands (the scarf was a big fail). But I decided to take on the baby blanket. Unfortunately I like instant gratification and this baby blanket is going to take forever but I cant wait to see the finished product. I told myself I need to crochet 2-4 lines a day (which takes about 30-40 minutes). If I do this it MAY be done by the time the baby arrives lol. I hope it turns out ok. it may be an unidentifiable shape but it will keep my baby warm :)

I'm pregnant!

So for the last 2 weeks I have been in Florida visiting my family and going to my friend's wedding. Well for a couple of days I wasnt able to sleep and last wednesday  woke up at 3:30 am and felt the need to take a pregnancy test. Well it was POSITIVE!! I am pregnant. Thursday I came home back to CT and got blood work and my HCG was 65, Saturday I got a repeat and it was 98 which really isnt great. It is supposed to double every 48-72 hours with a minimum of 66% by 48 hours. Well it wasnt quite 66%. I went back for repeat blood work today and hoping it doubled. I really hope this baby lasts. I have had 3 miscarriages, first one was when I was pregnant with 2 babies and i lost one before the other, second time was the second baby in the first pregnancy that I lost at 10 weeks, the third one was in August. I am just praying constantly that this baby survives. I dont know if I can go through another miscarriage.

Last night I asked my husband if there is ever a point where we should stop trying. Like if I have 7 miscarriages or something. He said no. Honestly I think if I hit 5 in a row I might be done. I don't think I am go through much more than that. There are so many babies out there that need love. I guess we will just see what happens with this baby. I really want it to survive but I am going to plan for the worst. That sounds so morbid but I think it will be easier to accept it if it happens. I am obviously hoping for the best though. Please pray that this baby survives

Friday, September 30, 2011

Money Saved today

So I am trying to start keeping track of the money I am saving. I have been doing coupons and looking for deals for a long time but have never actually looked at what it saves me.

Here are just a couple today (I forgot to keep track of everything this week but next week is a new week)

CVS- spent $00.51 saved $6.20
Walgreens- spent $6.08 saved $12.37
Weight Watchers- spent $11.37 saved $11.37
Subway- spent $7.35 saved $5.27

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Productive Day

Today was super productive. I went to AC Moore and got craft supplies,  made a Gator wreath, learned how to crochet, started on making a neck warmer/scarf,  practiced tap dancing for an hour and a half  and now I am snuggling with my hubby watching Charlies Angels.

Tomorrow I hope to accomplish:
- finish my scarf
- give the puppies a bath
- organize all of the new coupons
- vaccum
- practice tap for an hour
- go to the base thrift shop and try to find my husband a new uniform top

Rag/Fabric Gator Wreath

My first attempt at being crafty didn't go nearly as well as planned but it was fun to work on it. I made a Gator colored wreath from a bunch of blue fabric I had and a big orange bow (note to self work on your bow making skills because they are not very good). My wonderful husband said it looked really good but I think he is blinded by love :)

So this was super easy. My hubby molded an old wire hanger into a circle and secured it with military duct tape ( it is a little small because I discovered we only owned 1 wire hanger and it wasn't a complete hanger). Then I cut my material into 1"x 8-10" strips and tied them around the hanger. Super easy. The part that took the longest was cutting the strips.

Things I will do next time: Use a fabric that is the same color on both sides, cut all the fabric at once, not try to cut the fabric with Alli laying on half of it, use a complete hanger